okay, so it has been incredibly long since i wrote in this thing. I am just not inspired when I am in public places most of the time. Life just keeps moving onward. It rains a lot down here lately. That means i can't ride my bike. Well, can't because I don't have gear for that right now. I want to go camping, but the depressing thing is that I have no one to camp with, and though, if worst comes to worst I will go by myself, it is usually more fun to have someone to hang with. So anyway, I am pretty much down and bumming right now. I miss all my friends from my past life in GR. I miss people I know and like hanging out with cause we all like to do the same things. I think I am just really tired right now, and hormonal and therefore feel like I am in the depths of depression. I hate that. I am depressed too because I have 5 whole days off and I had all these plans to go camp at enchanted rock and now everything has fallen apart. it is supposed to rain alot AGAIN this weekend and people I wanted to go with me have other plans now, and the campground is booked. I really, really, really don't want to waste 5 whole days off doing nothing, but what can i do?
Jen is having a party at our apartment on Saturday night, friends from her bible study group who i don't know. I don't want to be home. I don't feel sociable, and I already know that I don't have things in common with these people. I have met a few of them and have not been impressed. Girly, normal, boring human beings. Ugh!
Anyway, I am being mean, and aweful and terrible I know, but I can't help it right now. So I have to think of some way to get out of the house for the night.
And I guess that is about it. Some of my family was here to visit me a couple weeks ago. That was great to see everyone. Now they are gone and it is silent again. I have zero energy at the moment. I feel like I am going to melt down over this stool I am sitting on because I don't have the energy to hold myself up.

Song of the day...Ani Difranco, As Is

wow, it has been a long time. i have just been traveling the same emotionally up and down path that i always do, though I have one consolation now. I bought a motorcycle and she is beautiful to behold...and to ride on. I love the freedom, the thrill, the connection with other bikers that is automatically bestowed on me now that i ride to, the smells, especially at night. and of course the wind, whipping over you and cleansing your very soul. I ride every chance I get now. I got my arms all sunburned from riding yesterday, but thats okay i will get tan now. A much needed tan as i have been so white and pasty. anyway, thats about all thats new for now, oh except that I went to a gay club with a friend of mine who is a lesbian. Quite the experience. I do have to say that it is probably the coolest club that I have been to and the music definitely does beat the striaght club scene. But i did see a lot of weird stuff! what a night!
i have to go buy my sister a ticket now. She is coming down to visit me. Till next time.

oh no, how could i forget, i just discovered the coolest thing in texas. Steaknight in Waring! A little town that you would miss if you blinked while going through it. Jen's family came out to visit and so Jen took us out there for steaknight. I can't believe she kept it from me for so long. She has talked about it, but she never actually got around to saying lets go. Well we finally went and let me tell you, this is the most incredible thing. There is live music. just great, down to earth music by normal people. you get a great 12oz steak, and then all the other food you want. You eat outside on picnic tables under this incredible tree, there are lights strung across the sky, and just great people around. There was an inordinate amount of hot, beautiful guys. Natural guys that looked like they were so cool and interesting you just wanted to do anything to be able to get to know them. Hmmm, yeah, anyway, if any of y'all come down to visit me we are gonna go cause you have just got to experience it.

Oh by the way, watched a good movie last night American Chai. you should all see it.