well, here i am again after a long absence. i just worked the past four nights and so I feel like I am re-entering the world after being somewhere else. I feel all behind on things. working four nights in a row is killer and i wouldn't recommend it to anyone. I was scheduled to work three nights in a row and my boss called me up the fourth day and asked me if i could work cause they were short. I didn't want to, but I owed her one so i said yes. That was the biggest mistake of my life. the night was hell! we got innundated with admissions. we each got one and it was starting around again, then one of the nurses working decided to pick this as a good opportunity to get sick. she went to the ER and left us to pick up her patients. No report, no nothing. That left me with 7 patients and ready to seriously go out of my mind. After that night i don't ever want to set foot in that hospital again. I didn't even get to eat. By the time the next shift arrived and I had to give report i couldn't handle it anymore. I just started crying. that was pretty messed up cause I don't cry and I especially don't cry in front of people and I especially don't cry in front of strange people. I couldn't help it. it was just gonna happen whether I wanted it to or not. I had no energy left and I just wanted to die. i was praying God would take me. So then after I got control of myself in the boss's office. I finished report. then to start on the lengthy process of beginning to chart on 7 patients. That was around 8:30 in the morning. all i wanted was to go home and die, and all I had was the prospect of sitting for hours charting crap. i didn't care anymore. i scribbled. didn't cover hardly anything that happened and left. didn't care what happened after that and half hoped that I would be fired cause i hate work so bad. the whole time i was thinking to myself, what can i do that would be comparable in pay to nursing, but would not be so damn complex and hard. that I wouldn't have to deal with bitchy nurses, sleazy patients, or rude demanding, condescending, pmsing(even though they are male) doctors. So anyway, life goes on i guess, but i don't think nursing is for me. I am looking for some other occupation. maybe i could be someone's travel companion.
I was so worn out after that stretch of work that I didn't even have the energy to finish one beer. That is really saying something.